Different Sex Drives

It wasn’t always this way… in fact it used to be quite the opposite.  I used to be able to shrug off my husbands advances with no regard for his feelings or needs. Surely sex was just this physical urge that would go away if I didn’t encourage him. Surely he could see how tired I was from managing a house, driving kids,  fixing meals, and doing laundry. Sex was not even on my radar until those once or twice a month hormonal urges. My drive got my engine running, and then it was once and done.

Sometimes I look back and wish that my husband had not been quite so understanding. Sometimes I wish he had shaken me and  said ” don’t you realize what we are missing out on?” My husband is the most considerate and loving man you will ever find. He figured out on his own to carefully guard his eyes so he could control his drive. He chose to love me even when I was not loving him very well. Quite honestly, I feel terrible about it. I feel terrible about how it must have felt when I rolled over in bed because the gate was closed. I feel terrible about always being in a hurry to get out of bed because I had something on my “to do list”. I feel terrible about the missed opportunities to connect with each other and really get to know each other in a way that happens only during sex.

Switched Roles

These last few years my husband and I have switched roles, and for whatever reason, I now have the higher sex drive. Let me tell you, it comes with it’s own challenges and I now understand much better what my husband went through all those years. We have this crazy cycle that we seem to repeat over and over, and here is how it goes….

The Crazy Cycle

For a while, I’ll feel good about the two of us and we both feel free to initiate when we want, and sex is great.

And then…. a  little worm gets in my head, and I think why doesn’t he initiate more? Doesn’t he want me? Why doesn’t he ever make plans for us or read a book about sex? Maybe he doesn’t think I’m attractive. I wish he was crazy about me and couldn’t keep his hands off of me. I  just won’t initiate anymore. I will wait until he really wants me….

Of course… as I pull back, he thinks something is wrong. He thinks he did something wrong, or that I need some space or that I don’t want sex….

The longer it goes, the grumpier I get. Without that physical connection between us, I start getting short  fused and prickly. I feel more and more hurt and pull away more and more, even though what I really want is to have him wrap me up in his arms.

By the time things finally come to a head, I can hardly stand to have him touch me. And when he does finally initiate sex, (maybe  a whole 3 days later) I am convinced that he is just doing it,  because I want it. “I don’t want pity sex, I just want you to want me!” I cry.  I put him through the wringer, and he patiently puts up with my craziness while slowly getting me to open back up.

And then… we have crazy, hot  make up sex.

Insights

I’m working on my craziness, but really I just want to share insight into the challenges  the higher drive spouse faces.

Wanting to feel wanted

Feeling disconnected

Getting grumpy

Feeling like sex happens just out of pity

It is all part of negotiating this thing called marriage and learning to understand and care about each other. God gave us this crazy thing called sex to connect, but that does not mean it is all smooth sailing. It is when we work  through the hard stuff that we know each  other better.

Your mission this week

If you are the higher drive spouse… in a loving way, share with your spouse some of the challenges that you face and your hopes and dreams for the two of you. If you are the lower drive spouse, ask your spouse to share some of the challenges that they face and hear them. Talk about some ways that you can love each other better and then, have some great sex!

Originally Published as Higher Drive – Lower Drive on July 11, 2014

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