God spoke to me this week through Psalm 95:8
The Lord says, “Don’t harden your hearts as Israel did at Meribah, as they did at Massah in the wilderness.”
God made it very plain to me that my heart has become hard – cynical, calloused and missing out on His wonder. It has been a long hard year and I feel like I am finally starting to feel the winds of change. I don’t know if you can relate to this or not, but I am ready for God to do a work. So if you want, join me in asking…
Oh God, soften my heart.
Tear down the walls built from broken relationships, disappointment or my own failures. Help me to live again. Give me the energy to laugh and play like a child. Fill me with the courage to fall and get back up again. Help me reach out even when faced by rejection. God remove the walls, and circumcise my heart.
Remove the course skin gradually built up over years of doing life. Day in and day out, laundry, dishes, cooking, grocery shopping, or work. Let me feel the warmth of the sun, the smoothness of well-polished wood and the comfort in my husband’s arms.
Remove the callouses from years of ministry coupled with greater and greater administrative tasks. Wake me up and help me to feel through fresh skin. Remove the numbness and let me feel the pain of broken sexuality and relationships. Bring me to tears when marriages implode. Open my arms when a sister needs a hug. Break by heart for the lost and broken.
God make my heart soft and permeable like the most delicate tissue that I offer my husband. May I shudder as your Holy Spirit sweeps through the room and through my soul. Open my eyes in awe as I see you work miracles in the lives of women. Fill me with wonder for your perfect provision. Give me the courage to ask for more of you. Soften my heart!